For Name's Sake

For so many people and animals alike, the dream is to one day reproduce and to continue your family chain and heritage into the world. I’ve always dreamed of becoming a father and through countless tries and numerous women I was always disappointed due to the not-taking or a gut-wrenching miscarriage. My determination would constantly persist, and I was able to understand that the way it was working in my life was that I was not meant to be a father by blood until I found my forever love. I acknowledge and appreciate the sentiment from whomever possess that faithful power but it seemed devastating nonetheless.

I have helped raise and been part of the lives of many children thorough relationships and family. I found myself steering towards women with children already as a subconscious attempt to gain what I haven’t been able to produce.

With my countless years of attempting to turn my dream into reality the disappointment weighed heavily on my soul and I do believe affected my addiction and loss of control. With the years of break-ups and disappointing the youthful generations due to my alcoholism, I never realized that my fate was trying me in more ways than I had thought. I struggled through countless hours of incarcerations and thousands of dollars spent on lawyers and fees. Losing my license for nearly all my adult life (which obviously hurts pride and self-worth.) I found myself…